Me=1; Big Bad Mood=0

To expand just a bit on my last post, my mood earlier today was primarily about feeling overwhelmed with responsibilities at home.  And how my efforts sometimes go unnoticed and very often go unrewarded (outside of knowing that I’m doing what I need to be doing).  I’ve never really believed things ought to be 50/50 in a household.  In my opinion, it leaves too much opportunity for tit-for-tat thinking.  “Well I did this, now you’ve got to do that!”  I don’t want to keep that kind of running tally.  I believe that the scales tip back and forth – sometimes you’re the 60, sometimes you’re the 40.  Sometimes you’re really at the top of your game, and sometimes you just need your partner (and kids) to pick up the slack.  For an extended period of time now, I’ve been closer to the 75 than the 25.  Day in, day out, operating at a very high level of responsibility.  My “Wanting To” left me feeling bitter about that, and like I wanted to be recognized and thanked and maybe even fawned over a little bit.  My “Trying To” helped me to understand that our family is just in a phase, and that my feelings are temporary.  No need to behave in an unkind manner or say unkind things that will have a much longer impact than my current, short-term situation.

I’ll be honest – I’m still needing a break soon, and a little time to decompress after a very stressful month.  But I’m happy to say that I’m learning to tackle my urge to stomp around and rant to the rooftops, and learning to have a little more patience instead.

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